introducing kyle

the little pirate-themed rubber ducky that sara brought me back from her vacation. his name is kyle mcrogers, and the eccentricity of his name proves my insanity. to quote my twitter: "sure, i laugh at my own stupidity constantly yet i'm still definitely insane."
goin' to see harry potter tonight. it's going to be awesome. or, at least i hope it will. i could still run into some people who i don't want to ever see at the moment and my world could become shattered and distilled and i'll break again.
for some odd reason i slept on the futon last night and it was very nice. the futon (official name) has a nasty reputation for being uncomfortable but i didn't believe it this morning when i woke up after an easy night of sleep (my first in a while.)
i have a crazed urge to paint something again - although my creativity is lacking for medical reason - but i still owe sara those 'schrooms and i kept harassing haley about letting me make her anouther piece.
seriously, i'm a lame artist, but you know, do what you can.

on the topic of lame things, my horoscope was scaringly accurate today;
"Self-control has never been high on your list of the qualities you admire in yourself. More like the 'qualities I wish I had' list. So don't beat yourself up if you're not exactly the soul of willpower when it comes to the plastic right now. The best you can do is to ask a friend to go along with you, whenever you go anywhere close to a mall, especially if you genuinely need something. No one can be everywhere at once. Not even you. So don't worry about it. Today is the day for you to start cutting through the haze and really seeing your surroundings for what they are. You may have to enlist some aid, as it's much thicker than it looks!"

i have the self-control of a heroin junkie who is on withdrawal and breaks after two days.
although heroin is not my vice (thank god!) i still have weaknesses - i tend to think more than normal people for not being as strong as others - but whatever gets me through the day, honestly.

on a more pleasant note...less than nine hours until harry potter premires, less than six hours until i'm at the theatre, and ten more days until my braces are off and i'm a completely new person again.

we'll see where that leans me to. hopefully somewhere that has chicken.

it's chocolate.

i forgot what i was going to say.
haley and i went to the trenton street fair today and i got a air brush tattoo of a snake and a skull on my wrist and i'm pretending it's a dark mark so that if i touch it the DARK LORD will come and he will kill all the muggles hahahahaa. the trenton street fair was awesome and it was a beautiful day so i recommend going to it although today's the last.

papa's party went really well yesterday (: he was surprised. and that's when haley came over and we ate food and it was a good time and then we watched ahrry potter and the chamber of secrets and i forgot how much i forgot i hated that book. haley is getting mad at me because apparently my typing is louder than the movie and she tells me that she's going to kick my ass soon.

sara left her clothes at my house. awesome. she just ditched me on facebook.
the premire is on tuesday night and we are so pumped and then i'm going to chicago on friday with haley and my mom and granny and then a week later i'm going up to tawas and warped tour [: i'm glad at least some things are starting to happen now.

my grandma took a quiz on facebook of which house she's in and she's a gryffindor. usually i don't like those kinds but i love my grandma so i'll have to make an acception.

i am still lost on what to say. sara, stop calling me poetic. it's pathetic.

paint covers my hands

i forgot how much i actually enjoy painting, whether i'm useful or useless at it.
i finished a piece for my uncle david, who will be coming up fron kentucky tomorrow for my grandfather's 70 surprise party...i hope no one tells him it's a surprise, we've worked hard for it not to get ruined.
sara is on the couch right now, writing, and then we're going to take some pictures because she claims she needs a new one for her prezznot and i could probably shake things up a bit, too.
i made a flickr account today (:
as i always will be, the link is here.
i hope i'll actually take some good pictures this summer [:
sara painting her nails --->
GOOD NEWS! i get my braces off july 24th, and hopefully a hair cut too :D
all directly before tawas and warped tour. maybe then the summer will actually kick off and i'll stop waking up at one every afternoon and maybe even get around to doing something.
i managed to make sara my doll and take some decent pictures of her because when i grow up i'll definitely be someone of authority with my tone, although i'm not quite the biggest fan.
sara says she feels accomplished. i really don't know what she's talking about but she's confused as to why i can type without looking at the screen. it's because i'm awesome.
so i'm painting some pieces for sara to put in her room and i'm pumped because maybe one day i'll be good at doing what i do. because i sure enjoy doing it. and i might make something for my grandma, or another chuck piece for my uncle. whatever fits.
<--- pretty decent picture. i'm surprised.
we're gunna go watch some role models and write crap...so yeah...

see a little bit clearer -

i really can't remember anything before noon. excellent.
i went to the ymca today and completed 2.7 miles in 30min on the elliptical :D
i think it's good for my second time on one...
i'll get there, eventually. especially with DON'T TRUST ME on repeat ;)
i worked at the library today. i alphabetized the children's section and started on the juvenille fiction. the library is actually pretty neat, although they hardly ever have chuck palahniuk's books nor do they have his two new ones that i desperately want to read. i sat outside the library for about ten minutes and found out that if you look at the clouds long enough anything can become beautiful. gag.
the only sad part about today is that i found up panic! at the disco disbanded. seriously, they were the first band i got an obsession over. brendon urie's voice is amazing.

yesterday my and kirsten's adventure went well...as well as a unplanned spontaneous adventure can go. heritage part totally screwed us because we saw the huge ferris wheel so we drove around, thinking that there was a carnival or whatever; the look on kirsten's face reminded me of a child's face the first time it sees something amazing at the zoo. we were really that happy.
until we found out it was closed. which was a total let-down.
so then we went to baskin robin's and lion's park. b'yeaaah.

tomorrow epic party at sara's (:
we're gunna get some swedish fish and twizzlers and make videos and take pictures and spam everyone and watch role models and cloverfeild and role models and just friends. and role models. that's a good movie.
and maybe we'll go out to the park because we should BECAUSE YESTERDAY at the park some fat kids were all over the swings and we couldn't get on them. damn children.
also an ortho appointment tomorrow; i'm pretty self-confident that i get my braces off before august, hopefully before warped tour (:


i need you more than anyone; you know that I have from the start so build me up buttercup, don't break my heart.

julia nunes is still on repeat...

to the sunshine!

i think if i use caps i'll have more respect.
nahh.

so today, i woke up at one, like i usually do, and my grandpa gives me the funny thought that i work at the library today! but i don't! i work tomorrow! but i had a great biscuit with raspberry jam for breakfast/lunch so it was okay. i love my grandpa.

i had DON'T TRUST ME on repeat today. and then i made an epic cd for me and kirsten's adventures. awesome. every third song is I'M ON A BOAT which is purely awesome itself.
and some chiodos, 3oh!3, plain white t's, nevershoutnever!, katy perry, cobra starship...those bands/artists are pretty awesome, so sara, probably the only person who reads this, those are good people. yeah. if you think you're going to disagree i'll call you and belt my beautiful, black heart out for you.
julia nunes is on repeat. julia nunes is awesome.
there's not point of this although i do like writing and having the strange idea that people listen to me. very nice.

"you see i've given up on begging and pleading
every scar on my arm is because of you"

it's not a direct quote but he knows it's for him.

follow me on twitter! i started that again (:
http://www.twitter.com/tylerBgoud

i had a headache.

it amazes me that it took about half an hour just to sign onto this stupid thing.
hi.
i'm tyler.
no, this isn't the real me, but this is what you get.

i forced sara to write a blog about me because she failed to mention me in any of her previous ones and we've been friends for how long, sara? how long?
well you know what! sara wants george. and accio deathly hallows just came on my zune shuffle.

"razors pain you, rivers are damp. acid stains you, drugs cause cramps. guns aren't lawful, nooses give. gas smells aweful, so you might as well live."

i really don't know what to write because i'm constantly under the impression that no one gives a damn about what i have to say. which is true, obviously.

the internet keeps failing to respond which is infuriating.
tomorrow, adventure with kirsten. then someday sara is coming over and we're going to narnia. it's very trashy in there.